7:30 am
Yesterday we had to put Tigger down. It is kind of a long story that I am
not sure I want to go into, but I will summarize anyway.
He had
been going downhill all week. Getting more and more bent in his back and I was
having more trouble getting him into his wheels and changing his diaper. Friday
is when I came home to find all the computer cables chewed, then I went out for
the evening. I gave him an extra pill, and he was really out of it in the
morning. Would not eat his breakfast at first, though he finally did. Sunday was
even worse. He did not eat at all. I let him outside and he lay in the dirt
near the steps for the longest time. I finally brought him in, but he looked
really out of it. And he had started doing this odd thing where he would sit
and kind of arch his back with his head going gradually up and his eyes really
vacant. Anyway, K got home around 1:30 and was checking him out, giving him
some rubs, and he went to kind of lift him up and Tigger snapped and bit his
hand. Well that kind of said it all. We left and spent the next several hours
in the urgent care to get his hand looked at. They gave him antibiotic and told
him to soak it. It has really swollen up, probably from the force of the
injury, though of course K is worried about infection. Anyway, that made us
realize that it was time, and we decided to take him to the vet in the morning.
We called and they could do it at 10:30, so I actually drove to work to get a
bit done then came back. Poor K was sitting here just giving the T lots of
rubs, which he did seem to like right up to the end. We managed to lift him in
a rug and in his old crate. Unfortunately we did have to wait quite a while for
the Doctor to arrive which was hard. Just lots and lots of rubs. Anyway, now he
is gone and it is certainly odd. One thing is clear and it is what makes me
most sad- no one will ever again give me such never ending unconditional love
as he did. It is an odd mix right now between wanting to remember the good
parts, and then also knowing that things will be a lot easier. It was really really
hard over the past year or so. Gradually harder so this past week was really
bad. But we will miss him. His silly behaviors, his cuteness, his eagerness. It
was actually odd to do my stretches this morning and not have him right there
to lick my hand.
Didn’t do
much last night. Well, I gave the buns
hay and brought the babies in, and checked weather before that to see if it would
be cold, and I hunted for Gs school awards records, and read them off to her,
and I started a fire and brought in wood, so I guess I did not do nothing, just
nothing that felt very accomplished. I went to bed early, and read a bit more
of Confederacy of Dunces which I am enjoying
though it is odd.
And what
about today? Well, on a few other notes: yesterday I also dropped Mom’s tax
stuff off with the accountant, and over
the weekend I finally managed to write something up to send off to the woman
about renting the farm. Those felt like big huge burdens off my back. And I finished
all the sea urchin lab grading and returned those yesterday. So things feel a
lot lighter, at least momentarily. I do have the fern assignments and the angiosperm
II assignments to grade, and the proposals to look at, and tomorrow I will get
2 sets of pre-labs. And then there is a lovely meeting tonight in Cummington
with the fairgrounds committee. Oh lovely. So it is not like everything is free
and clear, time to Party, but I feel a bit less burdened with things hanging
over my head. I think I might even set up to spin some of the orangey angora
that I carded last week.
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