Running and Writing (and soon Snowing)

8 am

                Like the date. November will be even better, except that will be the one year anniversary of my MIL’s death, so it will not be so cheery. Now that a couple months have passed it feels more strange that she is gone. Like things should be back to normal, but of course they are not. Well, it is sad. And of course saddest for my FIL who is doing ok, but not great. Hmmmm I had no intention of going down that route, I guess that is the nature of morning pages, one goes whatever route one goes.

                Here’s another route. Big storm coming tonight. And all day tomorrow which is when I teach my spinning class. There are many options, I think the first will be to contact the class members and ask if we could do Thursday night instead. If that doesn’t work for them, then another option would be for me to take the bus in fairly early tomorrow (while they are still running), then just stay. Overnight. And come back once the roads are reasonably clear on Thursday. It would be kind of an adventure.

                Totally unrelated: I realize that Morning Pages turn out nothing like the free flow writing that sometimes happens when I get together with Ali and Linda. In that case we often have some kind of prompt and write on that and things can get quite creative. This situation feels more like journaling in the sense of a diary. But is that so important? Does it matter that I write so elaborately about what I did or what I will do? Who really cares?????? Will I ever reread them? Probably not. In 100 years will someone go back through these Morning Pages thrilled to get a glimpse of the everyday life of me, who will by then be a household name for some reason that I cannot now anticipate? Probably not. hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm. I guess in some way it helps me get my thoughts together for the day. Maybe. Like as in how the hell am I going to work out my class tomorrow night?

                Oh, here’s something interesting: running. I’ve been running. Well, not sure it should even be called that, since it is this odd running done on a treadmill. In other words, I never actually go anywhere! It is just the running part and is surprisingly “fun.” Well, maybe not fun. Maybe satisfying. I try to keep it from getting boring by mixing up things like the speed and the incline. Anyway it is a good thing to do and seems to be helping my back. I don’t know what will happen once classes start again. All fine and dandy for JTerm, but things get a lot tighter at the end of the month. I’ll just have to really keep myself at it.

                Maybe I will try writing prompts with morning pages. Trouble is that with prompts I sometimes go off into wild and crazy stuff that maybe wouldn’t “do” for blog entries. But that is ok. I can always edit/censor…. Now anyone reading this will wonder in future entries what is being censored out....

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