Stress

7am

                Finished my bed yesterday! And I filled it half full of the droppings and hay from under cages. This morning I’ll get to work on the rest of the compost and fill it the rest of the way. I even flattened out the stuff in the first bed and broadcast on some alfalfa seed. We’ll see how it does before cold sets in. I think I’ll plant oats in the second one and see how that does for a cover crop. I also think I’ll take some pictures of them so I can post them. I’m very proud. Good thing because as usual there is so much to feel worried about.

There’s a lot I still need to do for Mom’s finances. Mainly I must find her a new accountant. Ours? The woman my b-i-l uses? Advantage of his person is that she’s near there. Well, I guess that actually she is not that close, so maybe that’s not so great. Advantage of ours is she is here and I already know her. Or maybe I should find someone closer to Mom. And then I guess I need to get her tax stuff together, along with her other financial stuff to give to this person.

Gotta start getting packed for our trip. And organize stuff for L. I need to write up instructions for her about the bunnies and plants. Man I wish I could get rid of half my plants. And it really irks me that K spent a bunch of money to buy MORE plants this spring. I guess I’d better check the blueberries, see if they need picking.

There is always tons of financial stuff of our own to do. I need to finish reconciling, I need to “split” all the credit card entries, I really need to pay bills before we leave. I need to review stuff for the girls to make sure their finances are in order. I need to review the Verizon cell phone bill. I guess I’ll cancel the land line when we get back.

One thing I am putting off mentioning because I feel really bad about it is that I have completely dropped the ball as far as the 350 Moving Planet event goes. I’m supposed to be on the Outreach Committee and I have done nothing. So I need to bite the bullet and look over the emails that have been sent, then think if there is anything I could do before we leave or while we are gone. AND there is stuff for work. I need to write up the ideas we talked about the other day, and review stuff from last year.

It is only 7:15 and I am feeling majorly stressed. I wish there were somebody I could talk to that could help me with this stress feeling. Trouble is, I get together with friends and the usual pattern is that we talk talk talk about their stuff. I know that mostly it is my fault because I hang back, wait for someone to ask or appear interested, I don’t push and advocate for myself enough. And also because I have chosen friends that like to talk. A lot. But then I did have a friend who was a good listener, and she is not my friend any more. Which brings up another thing to feel worried about – getting some fair meetings going.

Well, now that I have really worked myself into a bad state, hmmmm, what will I manage to start with to get done? K and L are off to canoe this morning. G will do some garden work for a neighbor, then we must drive down to work to get the terrarium that I brought back the other day but that she needs for Snakey. Tonight we will go out for supper. Tomorrow early L wants to go birding. 5-7 is bookclub and K has all kinds of meetings. We need to leave very early on Monday, so we need to have the car all packed Sunday night. Mostly that will be G’s job.

Better get started.

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