Thursday, July 28, 2011

Abandonment Looms


7 am
                Gotta get to the dentist today, at 9 am. I’ve been thinking through how to do it and get in my run (which I skipped yesterday). The dentist is close, I could run there, but then I would be all sweaty. I think instead I will bike there, leave here around 8:45, then from there go to pick up my ‘scrip at the CVS, then bike over to the bike shop to see about getting a pair of those padded biking shorts that might help the sore butt syndrome, then continue on from there for a ride along the bike trail to the river and back. That would make a decent enough ride. And it would mean I’m not incredibly rushed before hand, which I would be if I tried to do my run before the dentist (and after bunnies et al.).
                I walked into town and met a friend yesterday. We ended up at the pub so she could eat lunch (at 4 pm!) and after talking about other stuff, it came to the crux which is that her girls (2 of them) are gone for a month and mine will be gone gone gone for in a way forever. So of course I get all teared-up. If I think about it I just want to cry and cry. After the pub we walked together to an appointment she had and who did we run into but G taking a break from her music stuff. She asked if I wanted to get GoBerry and OF COURSE!! It was nice, we had our goberry and talked and then she went on to her music talk and I went home. I even managed to catch the bus. Then later after supper and all, when she got home, G suggested we go grocery shopping which we did and it was really fun and pleasant. Who am I going to have fun with anymore??????? Ok, reality check, for the couple of years before this, she was not exactly tons of fun, but now she is again, like old times. I am going to miss them so so so so much. Ok. But it will be ok. I have my own stuff that I do. I will hear from them. It will be ok. And soon very soon work will start back up, and then things get so busy I can barely stop to think.
                This had not started out intending to be such a diatribe. I finished the book Jenny. It doesn’t end so well, she kills herself. Part of me wants to warn my bookclub friend, she hates those kind of things, but I think I will just let her read it. I may actually go through it again since it is pretty short. Or see if I can find anything else by the same author. Or just be done with it and go back to Mr. Sammler’s Planet which I would like to finish.
                It helped, while chatting with G last night, to start making plans for when she will be back in October. I was worried that she would be bored silly here for a full week, but she says she’s not worried about it, and boy it sure would be nice. So I think we’ll just fly her home, and try to do TG then, I think it will work with at least some of the family. Meanwhile it is BIG WEDDING  weekend coming right up. I barely avoided the hassle of having to go pick up Mom on Saturday. I would have done it reasonably happily (maybe that’s the wrong word – resignedly is better) except that I was really hoping to spend Saturday as much as possible with the girls. Maybe going shoe shopping with L. I know she will be feeling like she has a lot to do, and I won’t be part of all of it, but it would be nice to be with them if at all possible.
                Ok, time to feed buns, etc. gotta be ready to go around 8:45.
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